TRIGGER WARNING: ONE INSTANCE OF GRAPHIC DETAIL.
As told by Kit & Clover's mother:
It's hard for me to write this down. My youngest daughter was 4 when she & her 6 year old sister came home from her court ordered visitation from her father's house. She made an out cry to me that literally knocked the wind out of me. I can't explain to you the words that came out of that baby girls mouth & what it did to me.
My immediate reaction was rage towards him, and a panic & fear that I had to act immediately to ensure he wouldn't ever have the chance to see them or be alone with them again. I notified authorities immediately. They told me to not ask my daughter's any questions regarding what he had done to them, as it could interfere with the court proceedings. I had to wait 48 hours before I could take my girls to be interviewed by authorities & I had to not ask any "probing questions" in the meantime. This was the most gut wrenching 48 hours of my life. Knowing he was a free man, walking around like a normal human being made me insane.
What he did to his own biological 4 & 6 year old children was the worst thing I could possibly imagine. These girls loved and trusted their father so much and this was the ultimate betrayal. It was beyond that. I just couldn't wrap my head around it. I couldn't grasp how he was capable of actually doing this.
I finally took the girls for their recorded interviews with the children's advocacy center and he was arrested later that day. Though he has since been released from jail because the judge granted his bond be significantly reduced & he has to wear a GPS ankle monitor. I had to go to court three times to obtain an agreed protection order. The 3rd time I entered the courtroom with several members of BACA & he quickly signed the protection order. Now he has been indicted on 2 separate counts of 1st degree felonies of aggravated sexual assault of a child.
But the justice system has not done us any favors thus far. They've scheduled & postponed the jury trial three times now. And my daughters and myself have built up our courage to testify against him each time, only to be let down by delay after delay. It's so discouraging for the justice system to keep brushing us under the rug. And allowing him all these defense experts and passes & basically slaps on the wrists. While my 5 and 7 year old daughter's suffer in silence.
Where is OUR justice? Why do my children have to not only endure the anxiety and grief of having to disclose so many embarrassing and personal details on a witness stand in front of a courtroom full of strangers and their own father and his family. And to top it off a defense attorney whose job it is to try and discredit and attack their testimonies, when their father is allowed expert witness and agreed passes?
Why is it that the victims are not allowed to testify in private judges chambers instead of facing their father in court and having to tell strangers that daddy asked them to take off their panties and sit on his face?
WHERE IS THE JUSTICE FOR MY BABIES?!
And then when I call and talk to the district attorneys office they just tell me "sorry the judge has granted him some more time to try and throw out your daughter's testimony" and "calm down, you need to seek counseling and anger management.
Well you're damn right I'm angry. If it was your children we were talking about you'd be angry too, you'd be suffering too, you'd need support and counseling too, wouldn't you?
This guy is walking around as a free man until this trial while my 5 and 7 year old try to process and make sense out of what he did to them. They're in kindergarten and 2nd grade and my 5 year old tells me "mommy I think daddy just wanted to marry me, that's why he did that to me."
Where is the justice? Where and when do we get resolution? Where is our peace?
But my girls are strong. My 5 year old more so than my 7 year old. My 7 year old puts up walls, so to speak. But my 5 year old knows what he did was wrong and I feel fairly confident that she'll do well in court. I worry about my 7 year old in court, though.
They keep telling me, "Mama can you please take us to Disneyland so I can talk to Mickey Mouse? I need to hug Cinderella in Her castle, Mama. they want all these fictional characters to hug them and talk to them and take their pain away."
My family is having a really difficult time with this. We have a very close family member who will find out if he has cancer next Tuesday and this only adds additional stress to this entire situation. When I saw Firecracker's story I broke down, cause my girls theme song through all this is Roar by Katy Perry.
'Clover' picked her name because she was born on Saint Patrick's Day, is 5 almost 6 years old and loves Sponge Bob.
'Kit', picked her name because she likes kittens, she's a gentle soft and kindhearted soul. She is 7 years old likes anything girly, like princesses - especially Elsa from Frozen.
'Maine', their older sister, is 11 years old, likes the color blue/green, and likes to draw and read. She picked her name because she has long hair that flows like a lion's mane.
Cards for Kit, Clover, & Maine
P.O. Box 2429
Lindale, TX 75771
We are hoping that they will receive one card from EACH STATE! If you would like to comment with which state you are from and will send a card - that will help us gain a sense of how much support they will receive and how much more we will need to go to hit every state. (And of course we welcome multiple cards from each state or from other countries!)